from things
to slices
to pieces
from pieces to slices
and slices to pieces
the little things can lift you up
the little things can take you down
entering the dark spaces is an easy task for me,
i have spent much time here.
realizing there is not one photo of me as an “adult” with my mom has re-illuminated some things… now i understand i created this, fostered it, removal en-total, destroying completely my health and wellness … purposefully taking down the stones … years ago… years after the memory loss … i wiped “it” clean, my way. with no understanding of what future means, i took NOW into account, repeatedly, each time stepping further and further away from the SELF. it’s Now again, finally able to pick up the pieces, and most of my family up and dies within a few years.
in some sort of continual aftermath i pray for the confidence to guide me so that i can find all these lost pieces … or things… or slices…
~faern march 2010
previous related posts:
its the little things :
http://faern-in-the-works.com/category/its-the-little-things/
slices:
http://interludeactuate.wordpress.com/category/slice-of-life/
other:
http://faern-in-the-works.com/2010/03/25/methods-of-being/
http://faern-in-the-works.com/2010/03/20/effect1/
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It’s possible that you will find all of the possible pieces and they will come together in a very different shape than when they were lost.
(((Faern))) I hope you can be gentle with yourself, you can only do what you know to do. You did what you knew, now you know different and you’ll do different. Be as gentle with yourself as you would be with your mom if you had the chance now.
I am going to go take a picture with my mom, see if she wants to spend some time together.
thank you very much for your comment. i am doing the best i can, there’s nothing i can do about the past i just hope i learn what i can from it all.