its been a long time since i have written, i haven’t forgotten about you all, i have merely been flowing with the seeds of change, cultivating what has been planted, moving it all around, checking into the fruits of my labor.

i spent nearly a week + inside my little abode coughing it all up. unable to do much of anything, let alone think about anything but my health.

basically i am astounded at just how much work being healthy is. how much more time, energy and money it takes to just be in health. for me being healthy requires scheduling. times of the day have to be taken into consideration, for everything. arranging life around health is an arduous task of grave importance. the challenge of this is amazing, cause, well, isn’t this suposed to already be ingrained? isn’t this what living is? well, being posed that question is quite enlightening… is it really a part of our lives to be healthy? or, do we choose health as a part of our life? i feel that to be healthy is intrinsic- but to ACT healthy and to honor that is learned.

and in adressing this directly- making the applicable changes, shit is happening- even if just looking- observing- its there, on the brink of being.

so here i am, puzzling my pieces together – effecting myself-

things have changed, and in the act of transition a whole new layer of skin sloughed off and let go. about this time last year i jumped into this fire- and i am most definitely not out the other side. i deal with my grief daily- but now i know how to move it around and as soon as i stop unintentionally allowing my energy to go towards misused areas… then i’ll have more fire clues…

i stopped

i looked

i changed

i moved on

i lived

lately i have been walking in a dream state normal is foreign "normal" lots of ifs , and ands, and , thats creating and dissipating molding its way into the watery depths of vision contempt, removed and shaken. a haze draws over as the world's eyes are shrouded or, just mine. who drew this line, connected these dots?

i have been changing out my banner images every so often~

here they are from first to current…

why am i doing this you ask?

well, we are such a visually stimulated society and i have such a wide variety of photographic interestes that this is an interesting way for me to share images, as well as get a different look at them myself…

thanks for looking!

the images i have chosen to share here today, are images thathave been shown in multiple natural arena’s- botanical arts showrooms and garden shows as well as some other arena’s like waiting rooms for chropractic work.

this particular iris set was created for my mom. her middle name is iris, she loves them…

this particular image is a part of a custom series created especially for someone in alaska.

and this particular image was created with nothing in mind except that i am particularly fond of the magnolia tree in both visual looks and history. this image is the opening image (currently) on my website’s photo section.

so, i guess this blog is about photo graphy…

just felit like sharing one of the original faernworks girls. she is one of my faves. you will be seeing her around… thanks for  reading my blog y’all!

where am i?

here i am

creating and dictating

waiting for an actual wander

creeping and crawling

under the mosses, twisting and turning

steady, ground, complete.

i was there, i stepped through

onto the pebbles and now i am here.

standing on my toes allowing

the steeped apathy

to seep back into the earth,

i can use it no longer

it was my blanket, full of mementos

reminiscences and maddenings.

now, i gift your teachings

to the universe